Friday, August 29, 2008

what's up doc?

okay, so i'm beginning to realize this blogging thing is harder than i thought. i guess it's hard for me to believe that anyone would be even remotely interested in anything i would have to say. i mean seriously... i've been seeing a therapist twice a month (sometimes more) and have been for 2 years and even then it's hard for me.

so, i've decided that no matter how mundane or boring i think my life may be, i'm going to just "bare it all" so to say and try to keep this blogging thing alive... and hopefully interesting.

starting with.... the stupid bunny that got itself stuck down my 5+ foot deep window well, right outside my bedroom window. waking up to a sudden loud bang is never fun, and for a few minutes, you actually just lie there for a minute or so to see if the sound repeats itself.

this is a good time to give you a little background info. my 15yr old daughter was caught sneaking out of the house about year ago, so, loud bangs are something i've come accustomed to listening for. especially since it is her window well that is right outside my bedroom window. i've also got an 11yr son who likes to wake in the middle of the night and creep upstairs for that midnight snack.

of course my first thought is that my son is awake and roaming the cupboards. so i lie there quietly and listen. nothing happens for a few minutes and in that time i've drifted back to sleep. i'm awaken again by a "rustling" sound and again i lie there quietly waiting to hear more before i physically get out of bed and see what he is getting into. after a few minutes, the sound gets louder and now i am totally awake and not happy about it. this time, the sound is so loud it makes me sit up in bed and tune my ears to see exactly where the noise is coming from... and then i realize it is coming from outside my window...

now mind you, my husband is deployed and i am in no way wanting to get out of my bed and explore what is going on outside my bedroom window. my thought go directly from my son roaming the cupboards to my daughter either 1. sneaking in or out of the house, and/or 2. one of her friends is gutsey enough to try and sneak in and/or out of the house! i can hear the rocks rustling and i'm not sure what came over me, but i grabbed the flashlight and quietly snuck over to the window. thinking if i stand there for a minute or two, the culprit would show themselves and be busted red-handed. nothing happens. so i shine the light out the window thinking that would also stir the culprit out of hiding. i'm not able to see down in the window well w/the screen in the way, but again, nothing happens.

i turn off the flashlight and again stand there and wait... the rustling of the rocks at the bottom of the window well start again and this time i head for my shoes, grab the flashlight and my sons BB gun and out the door i go. i'm now standing on the side of the house, shining the light at the window well and warning that whoever is there best come out because i'm packing heat! i cock the BB gun... wait... nothing happens.. so i fire off a warning shot. nothing happens... so now, i'm forced to creep over to the window and peek over the edge... this, of course, is what i've been trying to avoid the whole time. i'm positive that when i do look over the edge, i'm going to find someone crouched down lying in wait to jump out and scare the crap out of me.. or worse... but eventually, i do creep over and peer over the edge... at first, i see nothing! a big empty window well. and then... there it is... stupid bunny!

needless to say, there is no way i'm going down there to get it out, so i'm forced to lie there for the rest of the night listening to the stupid bunny trying to get out. by morning though, it was gone and the kids had quite the laugh. in the end, i guess so did i... :)

Monday, August 18, 2008

whatever it takes by: lifehouse


A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

He said "If we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see"
He said "Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I'll keep us together,

I know you deserve much better
But remember the time I told you the way that I felt
That I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know I've let you down
And if you give me a chance and believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

Sunday, August 17, 2008

pass the weed...

so, i just spent the last, oh, shall i say, 4 hours mowing the yard. its not really the mowing part that i dislike. i actually enjoy mowing. what i totally dispise is the weedeater! can you say modern day torture device? i absolutely hate the weedeater. nevermind you that 1) its impossible to start and 2) you have to wind the string around and undoubtly, when you get to the end, your finger slips and the string comes unwound. argh!

so, needless to say, i haven't used the weedeater since the hubby left for deployment. wait, i take that back. i did use it once. then it ran out of string and i haven't used it since. i figure that will give him something to do when he gets home. somehow, i dont think he's going to see it that way...

Saturday, August 16, 2008

something beautiful by: newsboys

I wanna start it over
I wanna start again
There’s a new beginning
One without an end
I feel it inside
Calling out to me

It's a voice that whispers my name
It's a kiss without any shame
Something beautiful
Like a song that stirs in my head
Singing love will take us where
Something's beautiful

I’ve heard it in the silence
Seen it on a face
I’ve felt it in a long hour
Like a sweet embrace
I know this is true
It's calling out to me

[Repeat Chorus]

It's the child on her wedding day
It's the daddy that gives her away—FATHER
Something beautiful
When we laugh so hard we cry
Oh the love between you and i
Something beautiful